Today I am 4 months sober. As a change, and to make things a little different, I asked my darling wife to write this post. So the words below are not mine and are totally un-edited by me. The first in what I hope will be many guest posts.
I might live to regret this.
One of my all time favourite books is The Phantom Tollbooth by Norton Juster. I first read it as book mad 10 year old. (I’m still book mad but with whiter hair) I’ve read it twice since – once as a teenager and again as an adult.
For those of you unfamiliar with the book ( do, go read it if you haven’t already) it’s a story of a boy named Milo who travels to a fantasy world filled with a wonderful assortment of places and characters linked to words and numbers. It’s clever, thought provoking and, at times, quietly profound.
If you’re reading this and wondering – and your point caller?
Milo finds himself in The Doldrums “…where nothing ever happens and nothing ever changes.”
Milo wants to find a way out of that place and eventually he meets a character who offers this advice – “…since you got here by not thinking, it seems reasonable to expect that, in order to get out, you must start thinking.”
As an outsider I have seen the evidence of just such an act. Having thought through his situation, acted accordingly, the love of my life has returned. Since deciding to become AF he has become healthier, happier, fitter, slimmer and more reflective. Conversations are richer, plans are implemented. He notices more, smiles more, laughs more, connects more.
If I’m honest I was sceptical at first. It seemed too good to be true. I still can’t quite work out how this complete turnaround happened at this point and frankly, I don’t care.
For many years I lay awake listening to his laboured and halting breathing, worrying that I’d wake up next to a corpse if I let my guard down and omitted to nudge him into a better, safer sleeping position. We both sleep more soundly now.
As Milo shouts happily, thinking his way out of The Doldrums, “We’re moving, we’re moving.”
I can’t quite express how proud of him I am. He did this. Just him. But so many people around him are feeling the benefit too.